After The Work

I watch you weighed down, down with life’s heavy load. So much to carry, so many people to please, so many compromises you make, so many times you trade your happiness for peace. When I met you there was but a small light shining from your eyes in recognition of love and a better life. It is but a beginning as you float through your life day by day you do not yet see your path. Your back is bent down, your voice is silent, your smile comes quickly to your lips as a guard to your heart. You have built quite a shell around your life full of smiles, helpfulness, and kindness.

You are the same scared person you were when you were young. That child is still inside running the show. They hide when conflict comes, scurrying away when asked what they would like. Anything to keep the peace. You would rather appease everyone around you before laying claim to anything your deserve. Happiness? I’ll make due with what you want. Joy? I’ll find it in someone else. Fulfillment? I don’t think I am worth very much so I won’t try. On one hand it is your greatest defense, on the other you hate yourself for it. A beautiful soul packaged in a sad, lonely, helpful person with a smile.

I write this not to shame you, but to show you that you are beautiful. You are kind, loving, helpful, smart, creative, clever, and funny. You also believe that if someone got close to you that they would reject you, that you are not worth knowing. Just existing and not living. Timid not by choice but by survival. Your soul screams out for life and in vibrant tones. I see your eyes light up when complimented. You desperately want to believe what is being complimented is true, but so so many people have let you down. Surrounded by chaos for many years, you were the peacemaker, the people pleaser, the kind one, the angel in the room.

I see you. I see the powerful person your are, who you are meant to be. I see your worth. What you have given away for many years ought come back to you 10 fold. You are the angel in the room with a gift that makes everyone feel loved and appreciated. I see how people look at you after you help them. I see their love for you. I also see how you keep them at arms length, protecting your heart that never learned to love and trust. And when you actually tried love and trust, it was stomped on, trampled underfoot with infidelity and sweet words.

It takes an act of love to realize that you can heal. It has to come from outside yourself. To think I Died for you many years ago just so you can heal from this and thrive. Awaken my sweet soul, awaken to the Truth! You are made in My Image, you are made to love and be loved. You carry such a heavy load today; your parents, the violence you have witnessed, the broken promises, the lies, the mistrust, the running around. You think it is because you are worthless, unworthy, unlovable. Quite the opposite. Lay down your burden, cast out the lies you believe about yourself, and take up your cross. Yes, those things happened to you. Yes, you are wounded. Yes, you can heal.

My burden is light and fits right. I ask that your love Me, and love your neighbor as yourself. I ask that you follow me 100% of your life, to want what I want. I will show you how to be Divine, Eternal, Loving, and Fulfilled. All I ask is that your Follow Me. That is your burden to bear. Allow me to carry your past, your pain, your broken promises, an your painful memories. I will help you make peace with the past. You deserve to receive what you have given away for so long. Trust in me and I will give it to your through others. You will find me in the arms of another, in their voice, in their faithfulness. You will hear me in a song, read about me on the page. You will see liars for who they are, and be protected by me from those who would hurt you.

Too good to be true? That is what Love, True Love, is all about. You love your family, you love others, it is time to love yourself by loving Me. Cast aside your cares, your lies you believe about yourself, your mistakes, and most of all, your fears and Follow Me.

Perhaps you cannot believe in something such as this. Perhaps you have let Me go. Simply ask and it will be given to you, seek an you will find, Knock and it will be opened to you. You were hurt by the culture, by the hippocracy, by the legalism. Instead know Me, I speak to you, I am not your imagination. There is far more to this world than birth and death. There is Beyond, and I can show you the way. Lay down your burdens, your doubts, your fears and Follow Me. I will speak tenderly to you, renew the hope you have lost, and show you that I love you and All.